SURRENDERING MY

 “FIX-IT JOB”

 FOR UNEMPLOYMENT

Every day I check the employment adds to see if anyone is hiring.  Today was no different.  I would really like a job.  I could financially really use a job!  I saw nothing and felt frustrated.  Then, once again I was reminded by God that I should embrace this quiet time and use it.  He reminded me of spending time with HIM in word, prayer and journal(my blog). He reminded me to TRUST HIM.  Then, something happened that packaged my thoughts for today’s blog!  I love it how God uses situations in our lives to tie it all together.

   I am a fixer.  If there was a job as a FIXER I would be a millionaire!  Job description; Mend and repair, patch up and glue. Well you are right, there are repair men.  That is not the fix- it job I am taking about. I have this strong compulsion to fix everyone’s (mostly adult children’s) problems.  I get busy thinking, solving and even springing into action!  DOING what needs to be done.  I physically get anxious inside.  I feel like I have a deadline to accomplish a project! I need to fix the problems and the people!

   As I write this I hear myself and I see your eyes rolling.  I know!  It is controlling, interfering, taking over. BUT SOMEONE SHOULD FIX THIS! Sometimes I wonder if it is in their ability to fix it and they must need my help! Ok I see your eyes roll again!

   My daughter is in a difficult place in life.  Jobless, without a car, money, direction and I am sure feels a little hopeless and overwhelmed.  So today I wanted to FIX IT! She did not appreciate my “encouragement, ideas, and direction”.  She became grumpy and I became hurt because look I am just trying to help you know…FIX IT!

   As I took her home I wanted to go into a speech of how I was trying to help and she should not be grumpy with me; the one who is trying to help her!  THEN IT HIT ME; WITTY!  WHAT IS THAT TO YOU!  Recently I read that quote from a Kay Warren Book.  MIND YOUR OWN BUSINESS.  What is my business since I am unemployed?

FOLLOWING JESUS IS MY BUSINESS!

  That is my job!

   I love the story of Martha and Mary.  I resonate with Martha and her heart.  I too would have been sweeping the floor, baking bread, polishing the pewter etc, etc. SOMEONE NEEDS TO FIX IT.  Jesus was coming for a visit! There were things to be done and Mary needed to be doing something Martha thought.  I think I can almost imagine Martha telling Mary how to get a job!  Martha like me found fix- it to be her job. Fix tangible problems and people!    

But the Lord said to her, “My dear Martha, you are worried and upset over all these details!  There is only one thing worth being concerned about.  Mary has discovered it and it will not be taken away from her.”

Luke 10 41-42

   ONE THING is what HE said.  Only one thing is worth being concerned about.  That is what the Lord spoke to me about today.  Oh Lord, I want to be unemployed from the FIX-IT job!  How I must hurt the ones around me when I take over, control and try to fix-it!  They must feel as if I think they are not capable.  But the real truth is I CAN”T FIX-IT!  There is only one person who can fill the job description of FIX-IT ALL.  I am not God.  I need to stop trying to take over HIS job and get out of HIS way so HE can move.  

My heart has heard you say, “Come and talk with me.”

And my heart responds, “Lord, I am coming.”

Psalms 27: 8

   So we have all heard the story, and today I am reminded to me a Mary.  That is what the Lord wants. 

Mary sat at the Lords feet, listening to what he taught.

  Luke 10:39

   So today Lord I except this unemployment and SURRENDER MY FIX-IT JOB to you.  I do love resting at your feet.  I do treasure what you teach me.  I desire your refreshment and peace.  I kneel at your feet and worship you.  I know you will fix all and do far better of a job than I could ever do.

The ONE thing I ask of the Lord-

the one thing I seek most-

  is to live in the house of the Lord all the days of my life,

 delighting in the Lords perfections and meditating in his temple. 

For he will conceal me there when troubles come;

 he will hide me in his sanctuary. 

Psalms 27: 4-5